Life Before Love

Sacrifice: An act of giving up something valued for the sake of something else regarded as more important or worthy. . . Gift: Something given voluntarily without payment in return, as to show favor toward someone, honor an occasion, or make a gesture of assistance; present. . . Speechless: Unable to speak, especially as the temporary result of shock or some strong emotion. . . Gratitude: the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness

You see this big kooliad smile on my face in these photos?!?! I’m not only smiling because I am happy I am smiling because I am free. For over a decade my life has consistently been surrounded by veterans. They are imbedded into my everyday life. This country would not be safe without the protection, sacrifices, and the valor of these men and women. I am so internally grateful to have them in my life. I can name more than 30 veterans off the top of my head who have touched my

The pictures below are from the talent portion of the Ms. Full Figured Georgia Pageant. Would you believe me if I told you I have not watched the recording of my solo yet? I don’t know why.. but as a dancer it is hard to watch my performances, I am going to chalk it up to the technical dancer side of me who critiques her movements. However the artist in me absolutely loves to express myself through free flowing movement. (And yes I’m a full blown dance instructor and still st

The story behind these eyes..Today is Pregnancy / Infant Loss Remembrance & Awareness Day. Monday would of been the 5th birthday of my first baby. Throughout the years I have experienced multiple pregnancy losses. There is a deep feeling of emptiness, pain and sorrow filled in each one of those experiences. Early this year as I was fasting for change in my mental and emotional state, I heard the voice of God tell me very distinctly that everything I have lost will one day be

I am more than a pretty face and beautiful figure, I am a woman of sustenance whose depth and capacity to love is as deep as the ocean sea. My empathy towards others is at the core of my being. My leadership to those who listen is the catalyst of my calling. My creative abilities is a reflection of his artistry. My writing is the expression of my inner thoughts that have transferred from my heart to my mind to the exact letter written on paper. Today spend a little quite time

In the deepest parts of our beings we long to be desired, loved, cherished, and cared for. We often look for those satisfactions and affirmations in people, our successes, material items, monetary things, relationships etc. However there comes a certain point in your life you begin to have the realization that once you’ve obtained the very thing you sought so desperatly for, that it is nothing more than a farce of a even bigger deep rooted void. You end up feeling as empty as

Transparency Tuesday 💫 In September 2019 I started a dance class called “DANCE TO HEAL... when words are simply not enough” that class was birthed out of a season of brokeness, I had just suffered my third pregnancy loss and was heading towards a divorce. The series of events that took place shortly after where even worse, the amount of pain I had went through was unimaginable. My dance class however begin to grow exponentially, women gathered and poured their hearts right a

Yesterday I won the Ms. Full Figured Georgia 2020 Title as well as the Rising Star Award. I am still soaking it all in but wow wow wow I did it you guys, I DID IT! The journey was long but it was well worth it the dedication and devotion. I will be posting more photos and videos from this incredible night as I receive them. P.S. a HUGE shout out to my God given sister / and pageant Assistant Desiree Cummings without her aid and support I wouldn’t of been able to transition th

When’s the last time you went into that quite place with Jesus? I am telling you, ain’t nothing like Saturday morning worship while cleaning 🙌🏾. I know we often joke about how we knew it was time to clean up when we heard gospel being blasted from the speakers on a Saturday morning. But momma, aunties, grandmas where unto something.. because my God there is truly nothing like a fresh clean house with a fresh clean spirit. This week for me has been one of the most spiritualy

You see the smiles, the cute outfits and the laughter in my photos . What you don’t see, is the tears, the pain, the prayers and the cry out that takes place in between them. It takes a lot of work to sustain my peace but it is something I am committed to doing on a daily basis. Sometimes (often honestly) I lose a battle within myself, but one thing that is consistent is that God will never leave me in the process. For my weeping may endure for the night, but as sure as the s

Today I heard the words that every child wants to hear from their parents “I’m so proud of you” I’m 30 years young today, and I can tell you my life doesn’t look anything like I thought it would when I was in my 20s. I had several goals I didn’t achieve by my 30th birthday but you know what? I’M SO PROUD MYSELF, IT DOESN’T EVEN MATTER. I have achieved things that I never thought I had the ability to, I have been put in situations I never thought I could overcome and still I R

Growing up I was a daddy’s girl, selfishly I would even like to say I was my father’s favorite (it’s okay daddy you don’t have to concur with this statement I know my siblings are reading this 😅 but me and you know the truth 🤣) all jokes aside. My father, was and is still my hero, a superhero of epic proportion but in the supernatural. Growing up I learned at a very early age how important it is for a child to have their father in their life. I am one of the blessed few who

Sometimes I truly wonder what life would look like if pain wasn’t apart of it. I know pain, makes us stronger but could you just imagine what life would be like without it?!?!? In 2020 most of us have endured incomparable pain, It’s a different kind of pain, the kind you can’t really explain but you know it’s real because you can feel it within every part of you. Usually I have wisdom to give or a completed thought, some sort of encouragement for the light at the end of the t

Recently one of my followers wrote me and said they love that I’m not shy about my faith. My response was “if I can be bold about everything else I gotta go hard for my Jesus” I am not perfect, I don’t profess to be, but I would be lying if I said I didn’t love Jesus because I must certainly do. Their is a certain level of conviction I have that most people wouldn’t agree with but at the same time I have less conservative views on other things as well. Many of which I still s

The photo is GREAT but I want y’all to read MY CAPTION! I am not only a black woman but one that comes with a lot of curves. To some my curves are intimidating and offensive for others my curves are embraced and loved. For me my curves are apart of who I am and will always be. Even in middle school I was the curvaceous friend. I got teased for my curves, and bullied for them (I can’t make this up). I remember being insecure most of my school years cause I couldn’t fit into th

Happy Mother’s Day to the mothers like me, the ones whose babies are in heaven 👼🏾👼🏾👼🏾 Mother’s Day is typically a very hard day for me. This one seems to be no different other than the peace of mind I have grown to develop. The pain doesn’t necessarily ever go away, however each year is a greater depth of acceptance. One thing that is for certain, the love I have for each one of my babies will never change even if my season in life does. Mommy loves you all 💙❤️💛

As iron sharpens iron, so a friend sharpens a friend.” Proverbs‬ ‭27:17‬ ‭Phewwwwwwww here’s something I haven’t said in a hot while “Thank God for accountability” 😅 I don’t know if it’s because I haven’t had an accountability partner in a while or simply because I didn’t listen when wisdom was offered to me, but whatever the case is, I am grateful for ”accountability”. In almost every season of my adult life I have actively sought out accountability or had a accountability

Fun fact about me, my top love languages are “words of affirmation” and “quality time”. Due to the recent recommendation of “social distancing” its been a little hard for me to willfully want to abide by it. I really value the time spent with others. I try to maximize my time by having meaningful conversations, laughter and discussing real life issues whether the depth of our conversation is reciprocated or not. As crazy as it sounds I actually like the fact that I am require

Your anger is not lateral to how you treat others. There is absolutely no excuse for the miss treatment of another human being, just because they have upset you. Learn how to have self control and how to properly steward those emotions. It’s okay to be angry just don’t allow it to consume you to where you hurt others in the process. If you are unable to properly address these emotions they will lead into different areas of your life, ex: your children, your marriage, your job

When fear try’s to make you cower and entangles you with lies in order to obtain your silence, you look at yourself in the mirror and tell it to go the hell on 👏🏾 fear shall no longer control our actions in 2020. We shall rise above its claims of oppression 🙌🏾 for weakness only lies between the areas of our comfort, not our potential