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Life After Loss
"Through Our Eyes"
A look inside our perspectives on life after navigating pregnancy losses as christians, and the journey of fertility.
A look inside our perspectives on life after navigating pregnancy losses as christians, and the journey of fertility.
Life Before Love
Previous excerpts of my life and how I navigated it in various seasons. Worth a read 🥹
Baby Breath For My Baby Boy Who Never Got The Chance To Take His First Breath 💙
Baby Breath for my baby boy who never got a chance to take his first breath. Yesterday would of been your 7th birthday, the memory of you will never leave me, it was still till this day one of the happiest moments of my life ❤️🩹. Love you Samuel Snow 💙 👼🏾. Also, October 15th is national pregnancy & infant loss awareness day, keep that in mind as the day approaches and give your friends extra love this week as we mourn and remember our angels. 📸 By my favorite Colorado
Doshie Dior
Oct 15, 20221 min read
32 Things I’ve Learned In 32 years
Another year older is supposed to signify another year of wisdom.. at least that is my sincere desire, with that being said I would like to share 32 things I have learned about myself and life in 32 years… lets call it the 32 years of acquired wisdom. 1. Jesus & Therapy go hand and hand. If he created me to be gifted in healing others I know he has created others to do the same in their own respective right. 2. Just because you have the mental, physical, emotional, spiritual
Doshie Dior
Jul 18, 20223 min read
Transparency Tuesday “Setting The Stage”
⚠️Trigger Warning ⚠️ 2015: I was living in Hawaii, married, with a phenomenal small group that I led, with an impactful women’s ministry that I created. I served on the media team at church where I did video and our church's announcements. That same year I experienced my first pregnancy loss. Those of you who have known me for a while, y’all know the anguish I had been in for years because of it. After losing my son, I went into a DEEP depression. So deep, it almost cost me m
Doshie Dior
Dec 7, 20213 min read
Intermittent Fasting Journey
Motivation Monday’s let’s talk about it! Ever so often I get commented on by my weight loss, everyone is curious as the “how” more than the “why”, I’m going to tell you both! If you’ve known me over the past decade all you’ve known or seen from me was me at my largest between 200-265 pounds largest clothing size 20. I’ll discuss how I got to that point in weight on a separate post in the future but right now I wanna focus on how I lost the weight. Over the last decade I’ve di
Doshie Dior
Oct 25, 20213 min read
The Hurt & The Healer
Five years ago, I wrote a piece called "The Hurt & The Healer" to talk about my grieving process with my first child. It was previously on my former Ministry and Organization page "Rhema & Freedom" but I ended the organization back in 2019. Today would of been my sons 6th birthday to commemorate this day I reflected and reread what I had written all those years ago and decided to repost it here on my site. Though my reality looks a lot different then it did back in 2015 the w
Doshie Dior
Oct 12, 20214 min read
Growing Weary
One question that has plagued me since I was a child, which I have yet to find the answer to and probably never will is this. How can you see or witness the self destruction of a loved one and not feel completely helpless about not being able to do anything about it to stop them. (Yes you can pray and that makes a world of a difference but I referring to actual action) If you try to ignore it you feel guilty in doing so, if you try to help, you get pushed away and rejected. I
Doshie Dior
Jun 27, 20212 min read
Pain is inevitable, healing is optional.
The thing about brokenness is, you actually have the mental, physical and psychological compacity to heal. It’s just your desire to be healed has to be greater than the pain you have endured. The reason why this is so important is because once you’ve healed and have been made whole, there is a freedom that overrides every single portion of pain you have ever experienced. A lot of times people get stuck in the pain and never do the work to be healed so they bleed out on others
Doshie Dior
Jun 23, 20211 min read
Jealous Love
Most days I am proud of myself on how I persevered through all the suffering I have experienced. But some days I struggle and ask God why do I have to feel the pain, what did I do to deserve this? But I am learning more that these hard times I have encounter post divorce are a result of two things. 1. Me getting into a marriage I shouldn’t have thinking I could save a man, who didn’t want to be saved. Truthfully even if he did, Jesus is the only one who saves and set free. “L
Doshie Dior
May 26, 20211 min read
I AM A MOTHER OF THREE
I AM a mother of THREE. You don’t see my children in my photos, but they most certainly exist, within the core of my memory. The love of my angel babies are engraved into the deepest parts of my inner most being. I carry their memories within me. My gentleness towards others, how I extend compassion, my willingness to show grace, my nurturing nature and every ounce of goodness I have is an intentional reminder of the mother I will one day be for the children I will once bare
Doshie Dior
May 9, 20211 min read
I’m not where I’m going but I’m a long way from where I once was
Saturday, I finally made a dent in my packing. One of the very last places I had left to pack, sort, and toss was the items in my closet. I touched a box I hadn’t looked at in over a year, it was filled with over a decade of photographed memories. Seconds after I lifted the box from the top of my closet the box tipped over and all photos fell out with it. I broke down crying hard. I didn’t want to see those photos, I didn’t want to gather those memories off the ground, I want
Doshie Dior
Apr 19, 20212 min read
Valentines Day Truths You Need to Hear!
For those of you all going into this holiday weekend. More specifically the ones who might be sad or frustrated because they are single “yet again” during this time of year. I just got one question... When’s the last time you’ve loved on yourself more than the desire or expectancy of someone to do it for you!?!? I have truly never been a fan of Valentine’s Day, single or not, I have voiced this over the years. For me I felt like it hurt more people than it made them feel appr
Doshie Dior
Feb 11, 20211 min read
The Vision I Have For Myself
After spending with “The Iron Crew” (my support system) these past few months. I have taken the time to reflect on myself a lot more, my goals, and ambitions. When I met with my cousoler this past weekend she told me I was unbalanced and broke down the three areas of my life I need to give my attention to in order to find my center. My physical health, mental health and spiritual health. I decided to make a vision board (I know we are in February but just vibe with me). Anywa
Doshie Dior
Feb 9, 20212 min read
This is the SIGN you've been waiting for
This is the confirmation you’ve been waiting for! 1. Fasting works! 2. Prayers work! 3. Treating people with kindness and being genuine works! 4. Reading the word of God works! 5. Renewing your spirit daily works! 6. Being transparent with your struggles work! 7. Counseling works! 8. Accountability works! 9. Getting out of a toxic relationship works! DON’T YOU DARE let anyone tell you otherwise. Let’s continue to grow and be healthy for our families and generations to come. I
Doshie Dior
Jan 22, 20211 min read
2020 Reflections
Phewwwwww 2020 has been a YEAR I will NEVER FORGET. I lost a part of me in the midst of it but obtained a better version of myself in the process. 2020 definitely came with its own set of challenges but I have been double in my triumphs and victories. If 2020 has taught me anything is that, what might seem like heart break is the setting foundation for proper healing to take place. To long have we walked around with wounds untreated that become toxic to the body and spirit. B
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
My dream man
If I could build the perfect man (aside from Jesus of course) it would look a little something like this. @wordsbyezekiel wardrobe style (that man can dress, straight GQ vibes) @whatisjoedoing height and acoustics (he got the height and the chops) @kb_hga leadership style & delivery (name someone better I’ll wait) @lecrae patience (y’all really be trying him but he keeps a level head, y’all really don’t want to see him to go off the “Deep End”) @kevonstage sense of humor (hav
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
Where are my visionaries?
Where are my dreamers and visionaries at? What is one dream you hope to accomplish before the end of your life’s journey? No matter how big or small, I want to know! One of my life goals is to create a school program/ academy where young creatives can operate and flourish. A place where they can explore their God given potiential without the limitations of societal standard of a “proper education”. Being someone who herself struggled in the barriers of a traditional education
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
“Seasonal Depression”
Let’s talk about it! I find solace in my writing, so just vibe with me. Sometimes I wonder if the things I go through is for the purpose of being more compassionate and understanding of others because man.....I have been going through things for years I never thought I would or could endure. I sometimes battle with depression but I haven’t experienced it for months now until recently. I have always heard the holidays are tough for people but NEVER HAVE I EVER dealt with it du
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
Grief - Road To Healing
WORTH A READ. It has been a very emotionally draining time for me this week. Probably one of the hardest weeks for me in 2020. Nothing new has happened per say, just more of a overwhelming feeling of acceptance in certain areas and a failure to understand certain dynamics in others. Even in my pain, God is still orchestrating my purpose. Pictured in this photo are a few amazing individuals that I have the overwhelming pleasure to LEAD. Meet my new grieving group. It’s so craz
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
The Whole Queen
I would personally like to take this time to recognize that I am a WHOLE QUEEN. This is not a flex but simply a reminder to myself! Because sometimes we forget who we are, what we bring to the table and the kingdom we belong to! Yes you see me with my physical crown on this earthly body, but one day my glorified body will hold a even bigger crown 👸🏾. When you get discouraged and life seems to take a turn for what might seem like the worst. Just remember this house is not ou
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
Finish Strong
Sometimes I go back and forth with posting certain images... that’s not the case with this photo. Is it esthetically correct? No! But guess what this is probably the most accurate photo of what my 2020 has looked like. Hands out confused trying to figure out where the heck it is that I am headed. But it’s okay God has ordered my steps, every single step of the way! It’s my doubts that confuse me not his promises nor his path! By the way HAPPY LAST MONTH OF THE YEAR. This year
Doshie Dior
Jan 17, 20211 min read
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