Life Before Love

Pictured: A young woman who loves to smile despite trials, circumstances, and bad days. She does this as a reminder to herself that she can endure and overcome anything 🖤

You are loved, you are treasured, you are cared for, you are beautiful, you are worthy, you are created in his likeness, in his image. You are so worth loving, you just haven’t realize it yet, but you will, oh baby girl one day you will. True love is sacrificial, what sacrifices have you made in order to properly love yourself ?!?! How many times have you poured out the deepest parts of you and have gotten nothing but rejection in return? How long must you endure the pains of

Still...out of habit.....4 years later... I subconsciously..... close my eyes and hold my womb as though you have never left from me....when I saw this photo I bursted out crying because I didn’t realize I still do this... but the reality is I do...I ask myself often will the pain hurt less but it never really does...I mourn you, I think of you, I remember you, I cherish you, I love you. 4 years later I have lost you and your other two siblings and it cuts deep, it effects me

Displayed in this photo, is “The Mother Figure” “Miss Independent ” “Little Miss Mischief” “The Bookworm” and “The Artist” By the look on my face which one do you think I am of the group and whose face looks like they got caught saying something they shouldn’t have 🤣?!?!? That my friends, would be Little Ms. Mischief and she keeps me on my toes.

I’ve spent what seems like a lifetime of trying to love on others who do not desired to be loved. Call it a response to their trauma, lack of trust, or simply self inflicted isolation. But let me tell you something. We all got trauma, if I treated or reacted to people trying to love on me based off the wrongs that have been done to me, I WOULD NOT BE WHO I AM TODAY. I am not the sum of my trauma, my abuse, my mistakes. I am the sum of Gods redemption and healing mercies. Stop